Friday, February 27, 2009


So quiet today
No children
Feeling just a little

After so much busyness
Last week
I am missing all of us
Too much

Sometimes it seems far
To go
Back to where I was
So full

Knowing spring sunshine
Just the other side
Of each door

Trusting as I am drawn
Toward a place I knew

Lost and Found

She said
I live in a house
On a hill

By the sea
It is perched

On the edge
Just like my life

It was
Just a glimpse
But we both saw it
At the same time
I felt you standing
Under the weight of loss
Solitary but steady
With strength and dignity

There is more
Than one soul here
Against the crimson/violet sunset of loss
A boy is by your side
Mother and son
To your waist
Joined with you
Through the loving protection
Of a bare arm

Familiar touch
Is so important
Now that we
Can no longer reach
What we loved
As much
As our own skin

Standing side by side
Not looking at each other
Eyes set on the horizon
Glazed by the sunset
Is searched already
For what we lost
A vessel, its crew,
A child, a puppy, a father,
A husband, a lover, a self

We all search
Inside ourselves
To understand our loss
Outside ourselves
To find what we have lost
Beneath our search
We already know its truth
They are never coming home

When, as a child
I stood by your side

I was frightened
In that moment

But needed
To be strong for you
I put my pain aside
I said I was OK
It didn’t matter to me
That my love and caring
Were braided with my pain
Fused together
And cast aside as one

After many years
I found those
Long abandoned feelings
Entwined and knotted together
Frayed strands of colored rope
Living in the tideline
At the margin of the sea
Just where
I had laid them down
So very long ago

When, as an adult
I felt you at my side
I was frightened

In that moment
but still needed
To be strong

For both of us
I held close
To my love and my caring
Feeling the pain of our loss

I am
No longer a silhouette
My being
No longer blocks the light
This crimson/violet sunset
Penetrates and passes

Right through me
I see clearly
Through these tears
I am part and all
Of the living universe
In love and in pain
Free and whole again
Born into a sunrise

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Early Evening Sky

Tonight offered a sky to remember
For anyone who noticed it
Miracles of light, color, moisture and wind
No matter where you looked
There was beauty

Three rainbows arched
Over top of city windows
Into the Northeastern sky
Colored cups stacked in a cupboard
Light on rain-shadowed hillsides

While a cleaving wedge of clear
Surprised southwestern clouds
The deepest brightest blue
That I have ever seen
Was splitting a space
Between flame-edged clouds
That were hiding the sun from view

All the sky’s pieces
Were noticed by the wind
Nothing was out of reach
Perfect fleeting beauty
Overfilling its cup
Drowning time
Nothing seemed to care
If it was noticed or not
Just a simple blessing
Not less than everything